*passes out*

I got to 50k. Barely. AND the story is finished. It's not a novel, no, but it is a story that had a beginning, middle and an end.

It's total crap and I really don't know if I even want to go back to edit it--but we'll see.

OH, fun thing that happened last night: at 45k, my whole file decided to become corrupted. Yeah, that fucking sucked. I lost about 1k. Luckily I saved the rest of the 44k in an email doc but I'll be god damned if it didn't scare the living crap out of me. I just saved the 44k in a separate text file and all the new words in a separate file and went on.

I'm really tired. I feel accomplished but more like relieved than anything else, haha.

I'm just glad it's over.

Oh, and I'm glad the semester is over in three weeks.

And I'm going to see mother fucking Muse in Las Vegas in less than two weeks, BITCH. WHOO.

Thursday: 2k
Yesterday: 4k
Today: 6k

So I've written 12k over a span of three days. I may write more tonight--as much as I can before I pass out.

Right now I have a little more than 5k left.

It feels good. Still don't like my story but that's completely secondary to finishing.

Here's how I keep thinking:

If I finish, I can finish anything.

I'm really prone to flights of fancy, so you don't know how many times I day dream about being a novelist of any kind. As far as I'm concerned, the sooner it happens the better.

The sooner I finish a first draft of one of my more permanent stories, the closer I am to perfecting it for a chance to be published.

This is kind of like a test of strength and stamina more than anything. I just want to prove to myself I can see something through to the end if I set my fucking mind to it, and that's becoming more of a reality as I get more and more words down.

I'm going to try and finish the story itself, just so I can have even more closure. But if I get to the 50k and that's it, that's just fine with me. I am pretty close to the conclusion in my novel, so I could easily just sort of glaze by it and make it loosely finished in its own right.

We'll see. I definitely want to be done by tomorrow, though. Mondays are terrible writing days for me, and I don't want to write more than 1k on that day if I even have to. Hopefully I won't have to. I just have to buckle down tomorrow and knock it out of the park.

So yeah. That's where I'm at. Feeling pretty good. :]

So I'm just going to be real about it now: I really hate my NaNo story, and I don't know what to do it about it.

I've kind of been denying it up until this point--or just pointedly ignoring it. But now it's just too obvious. It's why I've been neglecting the word count. I don't find a story worth writing, and so I don't write it.

I've been forcing words out of me onto the page. Nothing in this story has really excited me. Sure, I was excited to get my story unstuck and find everything falling into place--but that was really excitement over seeing the light at the end of the tunnel more than it was excitement for the story itself.

The words are on the page, but I'm not happy about them. They bother me. The words all together, though--to make up the story itself--that's worse than the individual bad sentences by themselves.

So I know how to combat this for next year's NaNo: I'm going to plan early. Very early. I may even do some pre-writing to develop characters. I'm going to have a fully developed idea, because the main problem with this story is how pathetically underdeveloped it is. It's like eating half-cooked, soggy eggs as opposed to a nice fluffy omelette. My current story needed a LOT more cooking time.

But the question is: what do I do now? For the rest of the 20k that I still need to finish? How do I begin fixing this pathetic story?

Do I continue to force words onto the page? Or do I find some tangent to go off on and write almost a completely different story, simply to eat word counts?

I've read personal stories of NaNoers who have started on one story only to find that they don't like what they're liking and find something new to write about mid-story. I wish I could do that. In fact, I may do that. I was thinking of what else I could write about, and I think I may have found something--but I don't know how much good it'll do me.

I was sort of asking myself "What's the point of continuing if I don't like what I'm writing?" You see, if I haven't discovered anything else about myself through doing NaNo, it's that I don't like writing for the sake of writing. I need a story to write about--or some type of subject that I want to write about. Writing just to get words down on a page is balls to me. So of course I thought, what is the point of finishing a novel that I don't care or like much at all?

I think I have an answer:

1. Because I can. It's kind of a matter of pride. I don't want to have some excuse for why I didn't finish, I guess, when I know I COULD have finished if I had wanted to. Could have, should have, would have isn't enough for me anymore.

2. The satisfaction, for the mere sake of sticking it out. I won't have something good at the end, but I'll have SOMETHING at least.

Pretty meager reasons, but they'll keep me going anyway. For now.

Okay so I had a pretty rough week last week. I got sick and I didn't want to do anything--including NaNo. I managed to get down, as you can see, about a meager 4 or 5k before the end of the weekend, but that's pretty pathetic. Also whenever I wrote last I got pretty stuck.

But now comes the wind of change!

I figured out how to get unstuck, and bam, my story fell together like a bunch of... stuff that falls and clicks into place and stuff. I began to outline it and it looks like I actually KNOW where this story is going now.

Also I know where I can fit in word count eaters--two sex scenes (which I will stretch simply for the sake of word count (lol stretch getit)), several weird/bizarre scenes that have previously been eating my word counts, and OH HI DIALOGUE parts.

I dunno if I'm going to write tonight cuz I still feel like shit, but we'll see. May get a few words down.

I'm just glad I have something to write tomorrow. I'm also glad that I'm actually good at writing a lot in one session because I miss so many damn days of writing, pfft.

I'll definitely be at 30k by the end of this week. I'm making it a goal. The rest of the 20k will come with the--wait we don't have two weeks. OKAY HOW ABOUT THIS.

I'll be at 30k OR MORE by the end of this week and weekend, and on Thanksgiving break I have a huge, monster cram-writing session for Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Hopefully I'll be very close to finished by Monday because I'm pretty sure I have an essay due the next day (which is mostly written, but not entirely).

Jeez. Maybe I should write tonight. Do not tempt me, Legacy of Goku 2. You are a vile temptress indeed. You're going to prevent my novel (or 50k) from being completed and/or give me carpal tunnel if I let you!

Anyway. I may just make it to 50k and not to the end of the novel... but I have a feeling, really, that the novel won't even end up being that long, so it may end at 50k. If it doesn't, then it definitely won't be more than 60k. I'll be damn surprised if it makes it past 70k (not that I'd get that far this month, or that I'll even want to finish it after this month, pfft). I'm just hoping I'll have enough story to make it to 50k, actually, because it's pretty possible that it'll just barely make it there. If it's too short, then I'm going to go into my "hey this thing could have a sequel idea" and then end it on a cliffhanger, muwaha. Dunno what I'll do if that's not enough, but really, I know that it'll at least get to 45+k by the end--it's IMPOSSIBLE that my inane ideas can't get me 20k words more.

P.S. the story is really shitty, so if anyone wants to read it they'll have to wait until I've edited the motherfucking shit out of it because it's really just a shit sandwich right now. BUT it's 22k of a shit sandwich so it's my retarded, disfigured baby anyway. Actually you know what? I don't even know if it'll be that good after I edit it, haha. It wasn't the exciting story I had originally envisioned, simply because I ignored my writing sanity and allowed myself to write just to get to the next scene instead of writing what sounded go and what gave the scene good vibes. Oh well, that's for better stories, I guess.

I'm in a pretty weird mood if you couldn't tell. Pfft.

Today as I write this: 17005

So yeah, I'm pretty ahead. I'm a little more than 3 days ahead of where I should be. *pats back*

Of course that's more from writing sessions where I get down 3-4k, and from my 8k starting point. I haven't been good about writing every single day, just because Tuesdays and Thursdays I feel sort of dead. I'll try not to do that next week.

In fact... I should be writing now, but I'm eating, so I figured I should take a break.

Trying to make it to 25k by Sunday or Monday.

As for my story... it's pretty crappy, haha. I'm not having trouble editing, because it would be too painful to look back at segments I wrote right now. I already know I'm going to want to rewrite the entire first part, and probably a lot of parts in-between. Forget editing, the entire thing needs an overhaul--a second draft.

The writing is shitty, basically, but story-wise, I think it's kind of not-bad. At least I know where it's going and how to get there.

Meanwhile, my art and philosophy teachers decided to give me two papers to write, one which is due on the 17th and one which is due the first of December (meaning the day after I'm probably going to be busy finishing the story). Sooo I'm trying to get those out of the way ASAP. They're both easy, but it's just DOING the work that I always have problem with. In fact, that's my problem for the novel, too. Just starting everyday to write. What usually works is I take out my wireless internet connection and hole myself up in my room for a few hours--then I can pound out like 2k-3k easy.

I'm not exactly... having fun with it. Like it's been okay. Sometimes it's been enjoyable to write. But I think I've been so focused on word count that I've forgotten about the importance of the story, too. So maybe I'll try to adjust my mental state today while writing.

I only have so many hours to write today since I'm going out with friends tonight. Hey, I'm ahead of the game, I can do that I think. I might do it tomorrow, too, but we'll see about that.

Srsly... just stfu.

I think the people who blew up this story are at fault, don't get me wrong. It's wrong that they posted the video and took his words out of context.

However, there are just so many better ways to say it. Like... directly. Instead of being a patronizing douchebag about it and acting like OMG YOU'RE SO FUCKING FUNNY with such wit and sarcasm, going on sarcastic ass tangent about telephones that isn't funny instead of getting to the fucking point.

Not only that, but was he seriously taking a shot at Muse with that crappy British accent? My god man, you don't even know that they're not cockney and are no where near sounding cockney. You probably don't even know their damn names. Why the fuck are you endorsing them you stupid git? You don't know shit about them.

And I'm pretty pissed at how he's blaming the people who believed the video when it first showed up... as if it was obvious that he was a joking. From the context of the video, no, it wasn't obvious. A normal viewer wouldn't see that. I agree that more professional news sources need to look into it more, but saying that people who believed the video aren't "critical thinkers" or whatever he said is ridiculous. It wasn't obvious that his comments were made only 2 minutes after the endorsement--the video made it sound like it came a day or two later, honestly.

Even when he's technically right, he's still a complete dick. Jeez.

And yeah, even thought Muse never rejected his endorsement, my opinion still stands about Beck not even getting Muse as a band. I actually like that Muse basically doesn't give a shit more than the idea that they rejected his endorsement--they barely even know who Glenn Beck is. Lucky them.

Doing NaNoWriMo this year, I've decided.

I never did it before because I had the snotty attitude of "What's the point if anything you finish won't be any good?" But then I realized--I've never finished an entire novel. Never. I can do it, but I haven't yet.

So fuck it. Even if I write crap, at least it's a starting point. I already know I can edit it and rewrite it until the cows come home, so why would it hurt to try to actually finish a rough draft? All I've been doing for the past few years is rewriting and rewriting first chapters. I always start over before I get very far. I'm thinking I need to adjust my methods.

Hell, I'm even doing an outline. I won't follow it to the very word, but it will be useful when I get stuck, yeah? My biggest problem is getting stuck and not knowing where to go, and an outline will be like a safety net for when that happens.

I'm not fully ready--I still need an encompassing conflict, which is always my trouble when I make stories. I concentrate so much on characters and very little on large plots. I'll come up with it eventually, though, for sure.

So I am looking forward to that. I definitely need to write more and this will do it for me. I'm hoping this will quell my inner-editor from being so damn harsh on me while I'm writing, and that I'll eventually get into the habit of writing every day so I can finish other novels.

I'm looking forward to it. I've pretty much decided that I'll finish--actually, my goal isn't really 50k words. It's just to finish the novel itself. That's what I need to force myself to do for November.

I hate everything you do to me,
I despise everything I've come to believe
And I hate every evil think that I see

This juxtaposition of good and bad
Reminds me of the best and the worst dreams I've had
I'm either too happy or fucking sad
And I can't keep up with that

And my job? What a shame
Just a mountain of death filling up my brain
I am always tied to the tracks of a train
Desperately afraid of going insane

And I'd like to take advantage of a flock of wild birds to make my escape from this planet.

Christ almighty I've been thirsty
I'm forever fat and ugly
A stumbling bumbling bastard
Stubbly faces will always be hungry
And I don't know if I am capable of helping anyone
I am at the mercy of emotions of my better friends, my better friends

And I'd like to take advantage of a flock of wild birds to make my escape from this planet.

I just feel very blah. I call it the college blues. I think it comes out of still being dissatisfied with life, but not being able to say "Well, things will be better once I'm out of high school."

Things ARE better, but they could be better. When's that supposed to happen?

And so I take my leave of the following communities:

twilight_sucks
deviantsnark (which I haven't posted on in many months anyway)
antishurtugal (somewhat regretfully)
marysues
canonsues
weepingcock

Not to say anyone or any community in particular complains, per-se, but that is what I came to do there personally.

This is an impulsive move on my part, as I really have an attachment to the MS comm and have made a comfortable home in antishurtugal, and feel no animosity towards anyone in any of the communities.

I'm basically just doing it for my own sake. Complaining about bad writing or bad anything is not going to make me a better writer, or anyone a bad writer (at least when it's not in the form of criticism) and it's about time I realized that.

I will still continue to be snarky... it's just that I'm just not going to go looking for it. It's really fun to do, which is why it's so hard for me to leave communities that give me easy-access to snark material. But it's something I have to do, for my growth as a writer and a person.

I will still continue ledgerjokersues, even for how infrequently I update it. I only continue that one because it makes people laugh, and that makes it worth it.

I just feel like these communities serve as distractions for me. I feel like I don't need them to grow as a writer and participating in them doesn't give me any real joy--it's just something I do to fuck around and avoid doing anything productive. If they made me laugh, then it'd be worth it, but as it is, they don't at least 99.9% of the time.

I'm going to slowly stop being so hyper-critical. It's not because I feel like I'm incorrect in having standards... it's just that it's negative and distracting. It's distracting me from my own writing and making me hyper-critical of my own writing. I miss the days where I could write and just like feeling good about writing, not worrying about who would read it or if anyone would read it. I really need to get that back in order to be truly successful as a writer.

So I'm abandoning my crutches. No longer will I call myself a writer without an abundance of actual writing to show for it, rather than an abundance of critical opinions about writing with no show of how it's coming to use.

This might make me very inactive on LJ from now on, but them's the breaks. I may become more active on the Young Writer's Society forums, because despite my initial reaction I've still signed up and have begun posting there.

I just need something new. I don't know. I feel like I have to do this, otherwise I'll be thinking about this all night. And I can't stay up all night, I have a fucking math test tomorrow. Ugh.

I feel like I can't go back now that I've done this... I just really can't allow myself to. I know the truth, and I'd be denying it if I tried to reason everything to make it sound good. I'm sort of forcing myself to do this, though, so really, I have to see how easily I may fall back into old, comfortable habits.

I don't feel ready to leave these communities or these crutches, and yet I've come to that paralyzing realization that they can't and won't help me, and I can't help anyone else by participating in them, so what is the point, really? They aren't really fun, they're just something I do because it's easy.

I just need something better to do with my time, ya know? I dunno, I need to get some sleep, though.

Muse Rejects Glenn Beck's Endorsement

Rightfully so in my opinion.

Reason 1: Glenn Beck is an asshole. I can see why Muse wouldn't want to be represented by a douchebag like him. It has nothing to do with them not being "cool" to fans (he obviously doesn't understand Muse fans--there's nothing that will make me think that Muse aren't a bunch of dorks, haha), it has way more to do with the principle of the thing. I think if Matt or any member of Muse sat down and talked to Glenn Beck about politics, they'd either argue for a long time, or Beck would completely misinterpret and misunderstand everything they're saying.

Reason 2: I'm pretty sure he's horribly misinterpreted Muse's lyrics and politics.

While I'll agree with him that United States of Eurasia is probably referencing to Orwell's Nineteen-Eighty-Four, I think he, like most people, are confusing Communism with a totalitarian dictatorship. While Orwell was definitely basing his oppressive fictional government on supposed "communist" governments like the USSR, China and other countries, you also have to realize that what the book wasn't rejecting Communist ideals--it was rejecting totalitarian dictatorships.

Because looking at the book.... look at what Winston wanted to do. He wanted to get all the Proles together to rebel. He wants the working class to rebel against the oppressive upper-class. Yeaaaaah, not exactly anti-communist when you think about it like that.

I just feel like maybe, just maybe, Glenn Beck thinks Muse is anti-"big government", as in a more socialist/communist government, more than they are anti-corruption... which I don't think is the case at all. I don't know what Matt or the rest of Muse's political stances are fully, but from their lyrics, at the very least I can gather is that Matt is pretty dissatisfied with the system we have now. Remember that anything asking for change is pretty much the opposite of conservatism.

I also feel like Beck probably only listened to The Resistance. Taking just a few songs off of Black Holes and Revelations, I feel like he would probably be singing a different tune about Muse. Assassin has lyrics like "War is overdue/The time has come for you to shoot your leaders down/Join forces underground" and then some lyrics later "Aim, shoot, kill your leaders/Oppose and destroy demonocracy"--that's pretty extreme, wouldn't you say? And it's more against the leaders of the government than the government itself, really. Based on what I know about Glenn Beck, he'd probably shit his pants if he heard lyrics like that and think they were a bunch of anarchists... which Matt very well may be for how much I know, haha.

Either way, I'm glad they rejected Glenn Beck's endorsement. I think it's cool that he likes their music, but they do NOT represent his political stance, and therefore should not have been worth a mention on his show.

Because now I can't find a decent fic.

If I find yet another piece that was written in second-person present tense, I'll slam my head into my keyboard. Seriously.

Can you imagine a more unappealing combination to read from an amateur writer? The only thing that could make it worse would be if they were also going for stream-of-conscious, which I actually think that was what someone was going for--either that or they just had no idea what the fuck they were doing, which is much more likely.

Just write NORMALLY, people. Experimenting with new styles is something you should only attempt when your writing muscle is well-toned. By that I mean when you're a beginning writer, you need to just write what's in your head, and not "try" to write--which is obviously what's going on with these writers. You can tell, since the writing is sloppy, hard to read, cringe-worthy, cliche, etc. etc. Every word in the book, really (haha, get it? bleh).

Sad thing is? I'm sure they got smothered with praise for it. You get asspats in fanfiction if you can manage to write anything in complete sentences, and oh, just forget it if you write in a way that OMG NO ONE EVER DOES. Even if you did it terribly, it's praiseworthy simply because someone else would never attempt it, understandably so.

I guess I don't have issue with them trying to write that way. I more have an issue with them posting it without the purpose of critique, but for praise. It's just dumb. Some things need to be left in the writing folder, you know?

Bleh. I should be sleeping.

So this is the first book I read by Neil Gaiman. I've read some of his short story anthology Smoke and Mirrors so I have an idea of what I'm getting into, though, and I've read a bit of Good Omens (which I will indeed have to go back to now that I have time to read it).

( Here are my thoughts--contains spoilers )

This is a trope I see in a LOT of slash I read, either original or fanfiction. There are several traits she can have--

- Being one of the only people who knows about the couple, or the only one to accept them
- "Knowing" or "having a feeling" long before she's told or officially finds out
- Expresses some form of fangirlism--makes some mention of them both not being hard on the eye, smirking/winking/giggling at some romantic scene unfolding
- Falls into the Mother Hen trope of nagging, handing out advice, protecting/defending the boys from persecution
- Usually the confidante for one of the guys that first has the crush (falls into "knew all along" as well)
- Always has some form of women's intuition; may end up nagging the boys for lacking it: "Like, duh, it's totally obvious he likes you!" etc. etc.

I'm sure there's more that falls into the trope, but that's how I usually see it pan out.

See... I don't mind this trope, honestly. It's just that I see it so freaking often, and in the case of fanfiction, there are characters that get turned into this trope and that's where I have to go "Okay, no, I cannot see this happening. Just no."

But there's also the fact that I NEVER see one of the guys have a competent male confidante, or god forbid, a gay male confidante. I feel like a mother hen would probably end up annoying some guys in a pairing--some people just don't like someone doting over them or cooing over their private matters, shockingly. Why can't one of the boys have a confidante that's as emotionally withdrawn as a guy, even if she still is female, but she's not so bloody invested in the relationship. Some people prefer sound, logical advice to the advice that comes from people who only cite intuition.

Or how about we change it up, eh? Can we have a female who protects their secret (should their relationship need to be a secret) but doesn't necessarily approve of the relationship for whatever reason? This would make sense if they secret needs to be kept because of the society they live in--if the female friend grew up in that same society, she may have some values that's reflected in that society and probably won't realize it until she catches her guy friends having a shag and gets squicked out by it. Can we have her have some character development where she slowly realizes that two males can have a good relationship, or at least come to terms with it?

I think it would be more interesting to see a heterosexual guy friend be one of the guy's confidantes. Like SUPER heterosexual but also really accepting in an "heh, okay, bro *knuckle bump*" kind of way, hahaha. You could make him as dumb or as smart as you want, but come on, not all heterosexual men have their head screwed on backwards or are TOTALLY squicked out by anything gay. The occasional wince or "I didn't need to know that" proceeded with a light-hearted laugh may be all that's needed, or maybe even not. Some guys are cool, slash writers!

Gay/bi/whatever male friend! This is also something I so rarely see. Who better to understand your problems as a gay/bi/whatever guy in a relationship with a guy? He actually knows the dynamics, more so than an Understanding Female does. I can see a lot of personalities coming from a dynamic like this--I especially like the idea of the older giving advice to the younger, or someone who's in a long-term relationship already, or even someone who the guy probably shouldn't be getting advice from at all since the friend has never been in a long-term relationship but sleeps around a lot, or maybe someone who's just in the same boat he is. Anything, really, and I think it could really work. You just need to turn off your god damn slash goggles and stop seeing as every male with a close relationship as having romantic undertones, even if both of them are gay. Some people are just friends, slashers, mmkay? And that's perfectly okay, and you can so easily make them just friends without bringing in unneeded sexual tension between them. (Or you can have them be past lovers--now THAT would be interesting.)

Then there's also the route of having a female who isn't a total mother hen but still listens to all the boy's problem. Just have her not be so "Oh I knew the whole time" and dishing out what she thinks the boys should do even when it isn't asked. I'd like to see her as a lesbian or something, just because again it would have that special understanding going on, but really, anyone will do. I'm just tired of all females being so damn perceptive--can't we have some of them just be like... as emotionally invested in the relationship as normal people are concerning their friend's relationships?

It's not that I mind the trope... I'm just tired of seeing it and would like writers to change things up a bit. Oh, and for fanfiction, not to choose their designated Understanding Female unless the characters in question already have an established relationship of the female acting as a confidante or mother hen to one or both of the boys, and also has super female perceiving powers. Canon, people: I like there to be some back up. I also don't like the idea that you have to have the Understanding Female, because that does seem to be the mindset with how often she creeps up in the crap I read.

EDIT: Actually, I will say that I can very well do without the fangirl element that manages to crop up, even in the better stories. It's just... creepy. Unless the girl is known for being flirtatious--and even then--it would probably rub most people off the wrong way if they commenting on how omg hot they and their boyfriend were together, or how hot their boyfriend was, etc. etc. It's sort of like "ooookaaay I didn't invite you to a threeway, there. Back off, plz." That just kind of makes the whole invasive quality of the trope even worse to me, I guess, and the absence of the fangirlism is much preferred. Not to mention it makes the whole relationship so gimmicky to have onlookers from the outside going "Oh aren't they just so cute and sexy together?" It's like, um, yeah, they are, that's why I'm reading it and you're writing it. Why are you confirming this to me, author?

Point is, friends... generally do not say those kinds of things, at least no one I know does. Maybe some do, but I can still see it rubbing some people off the wrong way. You're friends, which means you want to see them in a purely platonic way, which means you don't WANT to imagine them doing anything sexual. At all. Even if they're both hot and they're both men and you're a woman who likes men. "They make a cute couple" is one thing, but near voyeurism is not okay.[/rant]

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions.

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1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

I really liked the idea of including lyrics, hur.

Stockholm Syndrome - Muse
I won't stand in your way, let your hatred grow, and she'll scream and she'll shout and she'll pray, and she had a name, yeah she had a name

Slow Burn - David Bowie
And the walls shall have eyes, and the doors shall have ears, but we'll dance in the dark, and they'll play with our lives
Oh David Bowie... rock on, you sexy old goat. <3

Survival Song - Andrew Jackson Jihad
And I broke my promise on a very sharp rock and I was possessed by something quite unfriendly and I was haunted by a demon in my sleep, that's how I learned how to survive
Survival Song starts at 1:38, although Brave as a Noun is a fantastic song as well. Crappy video but it has okay audio, I swears.

Stars on Fire - Final Summation
Scotty hates America, says this country's fucked, the flag on his wall's upside down, he says society sucks
Couldn't find a video, aww.

Song Remains the Same - Led Zeppelin
I had a dream, crazy dream, anything I wanted to know, any place I needed to go
I can't watch that video or I'll spend the rest of the day fapping over Robert Plant. D': lol.

I seriously just wrote "he thought as he wipely roughed his face."

Maybe I'm more tired than I thought?

Leave a comment on this post. I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better. Update your journal with the answers to the questions. Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

beo101 gave me these questions.

1. What finally kicked you in the teeth and made you start listening to Muse? SPECIFICS. WOMAN.
Uh lol I dunno. I think I kept getting Glorious stuck in my head, so I gave in and listened to it a few times then I stopped. But then it wouldn't get out of my head, so I listened to it like fifty bagillion times. Then I realized that like... it wouldn't get out of my head until I got more Muse. So I asked you for all the albums, lol. There was no specific catalyst, really; I think I just finally tolerated Matt's voice, and as you may already know I'm far passed tolerating it now and pretty much love it. :3

2. What is the BEST show you've ever gone to? And the WORST?
Best... that's really hard. There were a lot of shows that I enjoyed. Probably the most recent show I loved was the Phenomenauts at the Boardwalk--overall I pretty much had a ball. It's really hard picking one show, though, because there's been a lot of awesome shows for a lot of reasons. There was also the first Danny's B-Day bash with Last Caress and all that, but I'm afraid I only remember bits and pieces of that. There's also Subhumans and Leftover Crack, but honestly those shows only got good once their sets started.

I WOULD say "Phenomenauts at the Phoenix Theater" since in "best shows evur" I factor in having fun with my friends along with the musical acts, and that was a pretty fucking awesome show for both of that. But it would ALMOST be the worst show ever because of what happened with Mickie--you know, him getting choked by that gorilla. As you may remember I got pretty upset over it. Almost ruined my night, but the rest of the day and the show pretty much made up for it.

Buuut I may have to give "worst show evur" to the first Queers show I've been to. I think you remember why. XD It was entirely my fault, of course, but...

Basically I factor a lot of things into best shows and worst shows--and they're not usually the bands, surprisingly. I can have a great time at a show even with really crappy bands as long as I'm having a good time with my friends, and I can have an awful time at a show even if really good bands are playing. It all depends on my mood.

3. Besides people in big furry costumes, what is your biggest phobia?
LOL. It's needles, bro. Pffft. I thought I told you about the time I was in anatomy class. I've NEVER been squicked by any experiment in that class. Spit in a cup? FUCK YEAH I'M IN. Dissect a fetal pig? EW LOL GROSS FUCK YEAH I'M IN. It wasn't until I had to get poked with a pin that I started freaking out.

Like, cold sweats, shaking, panic attack type freaking out. I was the ONLY ONE IN THE CLASS to do this.

So yeah, I fucking hate needles and getting poked with them. I don't mind as much if I'm the one doing the poking but if someone else is in control of the pressure, HFJKHFAJ FUCK THAT.


4. Post 5 hilarious icons you like. [As you can see, I'm running out of ideas]
Uhhh hur okay.



THASS ALL I CAN FIND FOR NAO. D;

5. If Robert Plant showed up at your door right now and said "RUN AWAY WITH ME" or something... uh... Edward-ish, what would you do?

HM. That'd be kind of creepy since he's all old and sort of ugly now. Poor guy, lol. I BLAME THE BOOZE. He got kind of chubby and big-headed like English men who drink are wont to do and he seems to refuse to cut or comb his hair--ONE OF THE TWO.

But frankly I'm a fucking fangirl so I'd be off with him in a minute... though I'm pretty on the fence about whether or not I'd actually do anything (that anything) with him. But I'd definitely take the offer.

SEE, this is why I need is a time machine. I need to go back in time to the 70s and become a Led Zep groupie and then have mad sex with all of them AND I'LL WADE MY WAY THROUGH TO ROBERT PLANT, when he was still skinny, adorable and wore skin-tight pants. If I end up with an STD it will have been worth it for that.